what my blue peep toe shoe taught me

good morning familia...

i wanted to share a quick story bout some blue shoes that taught me an invaluable lesson this week.
i went into my favorite shoe store in nyc (shoegasm on 23rd and 6th) a few weeks ago and it was love at first site. i saw them the minute i walked it: they were a pair of electric blue peep toe pumps with a huge blue bow in the front. i was in love but my bank account wasn't. i couldn't afford them at the moment (i 'could' because i had money in the bank but as you get older you start separating your funds into 'bill' money, 'eating' money and disposable income, as opposed to when i was a bit younger: it was all disposable income) so i was smart and walked out of there with a broken heart and no shoes.
i kept thinking about these shoes and how i would rock them, what scarf they would go well with, the perfect jeans, etc. but i wasn't going to do it to myself and start living outside of my means.
i forgot about the shoes for a few weeks but on sunday evening as i was getting ready for my day on monday i thought of the shoes again and i don't know where this came from but i affirmed: miguelina, you are going to get those shoes tomorrow and you aren't going to pay full price. that's all i said and i went to bed. the next day came and i marched into shoegasm and there they were: my babies!
i asked for my regular size but they didn't fit, weird!! so the guy brings me a half a size lower and the only pair they have left includes the sample on the floor...ding ding ding! here was my affirmation manifesting itself. i tried them on and it was like a glove, perfect in every way. i put on my R face (retail face) and asked him for a discount because it was a sample and that i've worked in retail and i know how this works...and he agreed and took a percentage off the shoe!
i am a 7, have been since i was about 19, i don't remember the last time i bought a 6.5 but on Monday I did.
i affirmed something, didn't think twice about it, and i got exactly what i wanted and for the price i wanted.

this may seem like another 'i'm addicted to retail' tale, but trust me it's bigger than the shoes!!
this taught me the power of our minds and what we can do if only we watch our thoughts and our words (thanks Id) and channel positive energy into our minds, as opposed to all the self limiting, self defeating beliefs that human beings have been trained to entertain.
at times we want something and as soon as the thought of the want comes into our minds we tend to dismiss it because we start to think about the HOW, how will i start that business? how will i get that degree? how can i change this relationship around? i've learned that in life, the HOW is none of our dam business!! we leave that up to our creator and they figure it out. our role as co-creators is to ask for and affirm our good, pray on it, and surrender it into the universe. if we believe in what we want with all our hearts (whether a pair of blue peep toe shoes, a house, or a healthy relationship with our partners) we will get it, the only thing standing in between you and what you want is...YOU!
as i ALWAYS remind you all, trust me as i write to you i am speaking to me. these blue shoes were the tip of the iceberg for me because i have a long ways to go. i get in my own way soo much! i make excuses for why i didn't do this, why this relationship didn't work, why i haven't taken those salsa dance classes i've always wanted to or why i haven't worked on my yoga certification, but at the end of it all it's simply not believing that A: i deserve all these good and B: that i can have them.

a couple of years ago i read the Celestine Prophecy (changed my life!) and i wanted to visit some ancient ruins, and my heart led me to Guatemala. i knew i wanted to go to Guatemala and have an experience of a lifetime, but i didn't know how. i know some of my friends remember how i used to tell them 'i'm going to Guatemala' and they would ask: 'really? when?' and i would simply reply ' i don;t know but i know i am going'. they would laugh as if i were crazy, but i meant it and believed it! but that was an honest answer i didn't know, all i know was that the desire was there and i chose to believe that i deserved this trip, again, leaving the HOW up to my creator(s). i knew i wanted a grassroots experience, no electricity, no running water, just mama nature and i, and i def needed to see the ancient ruins of Tikal!!: and i got it!! one 'random' day at work a 'not so random' email came in from my school's listserve announcing a 10 day trip to Guatemala for $1,000..whhhhhat? that was the answer to my prayers/affirmations.

as india.arie says, it's that simple although at times it looks complicated. we are what we think and if you're anything like me you are plagued with thoughts of lack and negativity and fears of the what ifs, when will it happen, why me, etc. but we have to watch our thoughts and consciously shift our perception. watch our thoughts and try to be gentle with ourselves when 'negative' thoughts come up, try not to judge but coach ourselves through that and consciously change our perspective and think about positive things. i hear that it starts to change your life in ways you would've never imagined...i'm not quite there yet myself but at least me and my blue shoes are on that yellow brick road, on my way!

all of this ain;t nothing new. this is written in books, we've seen it in movies like 'the secret' and 'what the bleep do we know?', but i guess i was trying to bring all of the material in these books/movies a bit closer to home and share my excitement because i am starting to see all this stuff we read and talk about begin to manifest in my life.

so now not only do i have a pair of electric blue f#$# me shoes, but now my outlook on life has shifted a teeny bit and sometimes that's all we need. my mom taught me that all we need is faith the size of a mustard seed (if ya aren't familiar with the seed it is TINY!!!) in order to move mountains in our lives and to start to live a life of constant peace!! not glimpses of it but constant peace.
i pray we all find our source of peace down this path called life so that when the winds of change blow our way that peace keeps us grounded enough so that we aren't swayed to and fro during the 'storm'.

who'd a thunk it?...i guess i did!!